“We all change …

“We all change when you think about it, we’re all different people all through our lives. And that’s okay, that’s good. You’ve got to keep moving so long as you remember all the people that you used to be. Times change and so must I” Eleventh Doctor (Matt Smith)

Have I told you guys that I’m a Doctor Who fan? Yes sir, I am! Started watching it with the Ninth Doctor (Christopher Eccleston) and cannot wait for the new season this fall with the Twelfth Doctor (Peter Capaldi). I think that traveling through time and space is beyond spectacular really, it’s the human dream. It’s the human dream to want to see what was and what shall be. I think it would be exciting for me to travel through time because I just love reinventing myself. Think about it: let’s say that you’re going back to the Victorian era, you get to dress up with clothes from that era and play a character of your liking (granted with Doctor Who you wouldn’t dress up because people will see you as a person from that era). So time traveling would be a form of reinvention one can say. The lesson that I’ve taken from the Doctor is his open-mindedness. I’ve always thought that one should always be open-minded to possibilities because it’s with that sense of awareness that change happens. Like it or not change has to happen in one way or another; so by being aware of yourself, and your surroundings you can subtly detect changes and determine if they will be good or bad. Also, with that same perceptiveness, you can prompt change. That change, subtle or not, will trigger your reinvention.

It’s always been my personal opinion that reinvention not only helps keep you happy and peaceful but also is a sign of an active and healthy brain. I reinvent myself once a month, every time I do my monthly bucket list! The purpose of doing so is to better yourself. I have faults (we all do) so the bucket list is a way to make a list of our faults, find a solution for them, and find a way to implement those solutions. By implementing the solutions, you are changing yourself for the better that will trigger your rebirth, or to use a Doctor Who term, regeneration. This regeneration is an eye opener because you’ll experience the same old things in a different light because your perspective in life would have changed since your mindset changed. For this regeneration (reinvention) to happen, you must first realize what’s not working, what’s not working well and what’s working. Second you must first understand why it’s not working, why it’s not working well, and why it is working well. Finally based on your findings from the second step, you must either let go what’s not working or replace it with something that you think might be better, find solutions to make what’s not working well work great, and finally sticking with what’s working well and see if you can implement some of that notion into the rest of the list.

This is what I’ve noticed from my May list:

1)   Pushing myself is good and it helps, but I shouldn’t over do it.

2)   I am NOT a vegetarian! I tried it and literally got sick, so I’m sticking to my fruits, vegetables, and seafood.

3)   The way I’ve been studying wasn’t enough, how do I know this? I didn’t pass my test. Since I can take it over again, I need to change my strategy.

So this is my June bucket list:

1)   Do my nightly walks when possible. Ever since June hit, it’s been raining 24/7!!!! So I haven’t done my walks for the last 2 weeks.

2)   Re-do my study list and be very precise, as in today I’m going to read this chapter and tomorrow I’ll implement what I’ve learned.

3)   Continue eating healthy: more vegetables, more fruits, include tea in my diet.

4)   Drink more water. If I want some juice it’s going to be made by myself!

5)   Exercise 3 -4 times a week. I wanted to exercise 6 times a week but it wasn’t working because there are some nights I am too tired and when my insomnia hits, it is bad.

6)   I will have 2 adventures this month. I don’t know what it can be: kayaking, hiking, mountain climbing. I don’t know but I have to do at least 2 this month.

As you can see, I’ve taken notice of what worked and what didn’t work from last month’s list. Wish me luck! Please feel free to comment!




The cha-cha-cha!

Happy Good Friday!

Here’s my update for the week. This week did not turn out how I had planned it: have not been studying or doing my little morning routine. I suffer from insomnia and I felt its evil presence this week. I describe my insomnia as continuous yet cyclical, meaning that I always have it but some days are more pronounced than others. I go to bed at 10 pm and get up at 7 am, that’s 9 hours; however, just because I go to bed at 10 doesn’t mean that I go to sleep at 10. Most nights I either stay awake until midnight or go to sleep immediately and wake up through out the night, or wake up 4 hours later. When I don’t sleep for one night I’m more or less okay, but when I don’t sleep for continuous nights I cannot focus, I get agitated and anxious and my migraine slowly builds up for an attack. When I get migraines, it starts with my left eye and goes from my eye to the back of my left ear (when there’s a weather change, it starts from my nose, goes to my left eye and then goes behind my left ear). So when I have migraines, I can’t read. I take Excedrin Migraine for my migraines because that’s the only thing that helps. My recovery process has two steps: I have to first recover from the migraine, and secondly recover from the Excedrin. Excedrin kills my body: I get lethargic, drowsy, dry mouth, just plain slow and sick.

Just because I had a bad week, doesn’t mean that next week will be the same. It does get better and I will try my best to make it better. I have lived half of my life thinking that a bad day equals a bad life, or if it didn’t happen that way then it wasn’t meant to be. My new motto and mantra is to try your hardest and if it didn’t work out, at least you tried. It might not necessarily be that it wasn’t meant to be, it might be that it wasn’t meant to be that time, but it was for a later time.

On a more positive note I’m going to the library tomorrow to study all day! I’m a nerd, I just adore libraries, book stores and books! What can I say? I’m a bibliophile! 

For those of you reading this, thank you.