I need your help with this issue (supernatural)

Y’all I have a very deep and spiritual question to ask. I have lived in my mom’s condo for the past 12 years (rent is to damn high therefore my behind is staying with mommy!). During those 12 years, I kid you not, my room has been the epicenter for weird stuff… Weird spiritual stuff. For example one day I came home from work exhausted and was about to go to bed, but first took my earrings off and put them on my desk, then went to bed and started sleeping on my left side. However, as I was turning over to go on my right side something stung my back, I looked and there was my earrings! Keep in mind that my desk and bed are on opposite walls. Another time, I was home alone, fell asleep and woke up with a blanket on me. I’m okay with those incidents but still we called a priest and something was done. However, last night something happened that never happened to me before.

I went to sleep at 12:21 am, but before I went to sleep I was feeling very depressed. Extremely depressed, I’m not where I should be in my life at my age (30). So I said a small prayer and asked God to show me what I needed to do to find happiness. To show me the necessary steps. It was a very small prayer. So I turned off all my lights and went to bed. As I’m settling in, I could feel that I wasn’t alone. My priest has always told me that whenever I feel like that always say “if you are from God, you may stay, but if you are from the devil begone now!”. I said those words, the feeling was still there so I was like whatever from God means good! I’m laying on my back and falling asleep, and suddenly I felt this sort of electrical spark between my feet, I looked up and nothing. But I felt it again and again, and then out of nowhere I felt myself being pulled from my body, my eyes were still closed but I could feel that there was light! As I slightly open my eyes I see other eyes staring at me (color of those eyes were extremely light brown almost yellow). But for some odd reason I knew that those eyes were my eyes. So I closed them and woke myself up! Woke up everything was fine in my room. So I went back to sleep again and the same thing happened, but the problem was as I was leaving my body (I felt the pull from my chest, in between my boobies) I wasn’t leaving all the way. I started hearing voices and when I turned my head I could see this older woman and man talking (both dressed in white). The woman was saying “she wants change yet she’s not leaving.” And then I woke up! But when I woke up my upper body was in pain, when I say pain I mean pain (even this morning I was feeling the heaviness of my limbs!).

Has anyone ever experienced this? If so what exactly did you do? I feel as though it wasn’t negative but it freaked me out. In addition, something tells me that it might happen again and I just want to know what to do if it does.


“We all change …

“We all change when you think about it, we’re all different people all through our lives. And that’s okay, that’s good. You’ve got to keep moving so long as you remember all the people that you used to be. Times change and so must I” Eleventh Doctor (Matt Smith)

Have I told you guys that I’m a Doctor Who fan? Yes sir, I am! Started watching it with the Ninth Doctor (Christopher Eccleston) and cannot wait for the new season this fall with the Twelfth Doctor (Peter Capaldi). I think that traveling through time and space is beyond spectacular really, it’s the human dream. It’s the human dream to want to see what was and what shall be. I think it would be exciting for me to travel through time because I just love reinventing myself. Think about it: let’s say that you’re going back to the Victorian era, you get to dress up with clothes from that era and play a character of your liking (granted with Doctor Who you wouldn’t dress up because people will see you as a person from that era). So time traveling would be a form of reinvention one can say. The lesson that I’ve taken from the Doctor is his open-mindedness. I’ve always thought that one should always be open-minded to possibilities because it’s with that sense of awareness that change happens. Like it or not change has to happen in one way or another; so by being aware of yourself, and your surroundings you can subtly detect changes and determine if they will be good or bad. Also, with that same perceptiveness, you can prompt change. That change, subtle or not, will trigger your reinvention.

It’s always been my personal opinion that reinvention not only helps keep you happy and peaceful but also is a sign of an active and healthy brain. I reinvent myself once a month, every time I do my monthly bucket list! The purpose of doing so is to better yourself. I have faults (we all do) so the bucket list is a way to make a list of our faults, find a solution for them, and find a way to implement those solutions. By implementing the solutions, you are changing yourself for the better that will trigger your rebirth, or to use a Doctor Who term, regeneration. This regeneration is an eye opener because you’ll experience the same old things in a different light because your perspective in life would have changed since your mindset changed. For this regeneration (reinvention) to happen, you must first realize what’s not working, what’s not working well and what’s working. Second you must first understand why it’s not working, why it’s not working well, and why it is working well. Finally based on your findings from the second step, you must either let go what’s not working or replace it with something that you think might be better, find solutions to make what’s not working well work great, and finally sticking with what’s working well and see if you can implement some of that notion into the rest of the list.

This is what I’ve noticed from my May list:

1)   Pushing myself is good and it helps, but I shouldn’t over do it.

2)   I am NOT a vegetarian! I tried it and literally got sick, so I’m sticking to my fruits, vegetables, and seafood.

3)   The way I’ve been studying wasn’t enough, how do I know this? I didn’t pass my test. Since I can take it over again, I need to change my strategy.

So this is my June bucket list:

1)   Do my nightly walks when possible. Ever since June hit, it’s been raining 24/7!!!! So I haven’t done my walks for the last 2 weeks.

2)   Re-do my study list and be very precise, as in today I’m going to read this chapter and tomorrow I’ll implement what I’ve learned.

3)   Continue eating healthy: more vegetables, more fruits, include tea in my diet.

4)   Drink more water. If I want some juice it’s going to be made by myself!

5)   Exercise 3 -4 times a week. I wanted to exercise 6 times a week but it wasn’t working because there are some nights I am too tired and when my insomnia hits, it is bad.

6)   I will have 2 adventures this month. I don’t know what it can be: kayaking, hiking, mountain climbing. I don’t know but I have to do at least 2 this month.

As you can see, I’ve taken notice of what worked and what didn’t work from last month’s list. Wish me luck! Please feel free to comment!



Today was a good day!

Today was a good day because I set out to do everything on my to-do list! Well everything but one, I couldn’t sneak an hour of studying at my work. When I came home I studied for only an hour, which, granted is not enough, but is still something. This morning when I woke up, I did my little exercise and it did somewhat wake me up. And I already know what clothes that I’m wearing for work tomorrow. I’m going to continue doing my planned tasks that are on my schedule for the week. I think that by gaining that habit, I can easily do more from it. For example, I could only study one hour today (I cannot focus longer than that without taking breaks but it’s already late and bedtime is around the corner) but by Saturday I know for a fact that not only will I study for more than an hour, but also I’ll see studying as part of my chore, as something that I know I have to do and will do. This excites me! I feel one step closer toward my goal!

My weekly shedule

My weekly shedule

This will be my schedule for the week of April 14. I want to start the day with some exercise to wake me up and give me some energy. I will try my hardest to accomplish this. I know those of you reading this might think that I will have time to do all of it: I can just come home after work, eat exercise and study, or even do more. But the problem is being an insomniac and a migraine sufferer, I have to go to bed every night at the same time so my body can get used to my sleeping schedule. By pushing my sleeping schedule, there is a huge possibility that I will not get enough sleep, which in turn will trigger my migraines. The realization that I have limits ironically shows me that I’m limitless if/when I can just successfully manage my time.

If you are reading this, please feel free to leave me comments or questions. If you’re reading this and are going through the same thing, know that you’re not alone and change does exist.